“Defilement of our sacred marriage. That’s the real danger here. A union is sacred only when it is. She knows what that means. And she knows I’m not a jealous man. Ask anyone. If I had walked in on them together, I wouldn’t have responded the way other men do. There would have been no blood sprayed upon the walls. I simply would have walked away. Never looking back. Never needing to. It’s the unknowing that’s impossible. The nagging doubt. God does not like sexual deviance. And neither do I.”

Justin Rocket Silverman is a television producer and journalist. His work appears on the National Geographic and History channels, as well as digitally on Vice, Esquire and New York magazine.